I am a writer and a Mommy. I am a devout Jew. These are the most important books I have read: The Tao te Ching by Lao Tzu, Stephen Mitchell translation. Spiritual Divorce by Debbie Ford. Living Inspired by Akiva Tatz. My kitchen would suggest I'm a closet carny, as would my love of Branson.

Friday, September 18, 2015


Have you ever thought about tapioca? It's a starch from a root and it's used as a thickening agent or in everything gluten-free that has to be like bread in some way.  

I've been eating a lot of tapioca starch lately because I'm not eating bread and whatnot for the most part so I decided to find out what tapioca really is.  

Guess what?!  It has a whole lot of cyanide in it!!!  To be fair, lots of foods do and basically you just have to prepare it exactly right (or it will give you goiters or just kill you).

Seems a little risky to me.

I actually absolutely love the gelatinous stuff made from tapioca, I just didn't even know that's what those things were made of.  I only got curious about this ingredient because it's in that pizza crust I can eat and those crackers too.

But then when I looked up how to prepare the thing, the root vegetable, it's all about lots of cyanide in there, which is not edible.  It is really not good for living things!

Still, you know the gelatinous stuff in a falooda?  It is tapioca!  I love tapioca!  But now I am afraid of tapioca.

In happier news, today I tried a new fruit called Jack fruit which is so yummy.  The world is full of so many wonderful plants to enjoy.  I'm going to need a bigger garden!

Wednesday, August 12, 2015

Eating to feel good

There are two ways you can eat to feel good.  One is eating comfort foods or food that tastes good, feels good in your mouth, makes you happy in the moment you eat it.  

The other is eating food that makes you feel good later.  Gives you energy, is easy to digest and keeps you at a good weight.  

The trick in life is to eat the second category of food but to make your eating experiences as close to the first category as possible.

It's not easy.  It takes being purposeful and diligent day in and day out.  It takes eating whole foods or not eating when there are no good choices.

It takes eating some things you don't much like every day - like veggies or more protein than you want to eat. 

I have found that breaking my habit of eating for emotional comfort has deeply impacted me.  It's like dumping all your security blankets all at once - you have nothing left to hold on to so you find your inner strength.

I read The Power of Now recently but I can't grasp it.  I keep thinking about it and trying to understand it.  

Everything you read about spirituality and enlightenment points you in the same direction.  Peace.  Love.  Calm.  Surrender.

How do you get there though? Usually it starts with breathing.  Breathe on purpose, slowly, deeply.

I had an epiphany the other day about breathing.  And I'm sure it's related to being so conscious and careful about what you eat.  I think about where what eat came from.  Who grew it or took care of it.  Where it lived, where it grew, who touched it.  I am more grateful than ever before for what I eat.

The idea behind enlightenment is connectedness.  The concept that what is real in us is connected to everything else and infinite.

But we feel separate almost every moment.  

Except the other day it came to me that I'm alive because I'm breathing in whatever is all around me, mixing it up with whatever is inside me and sending it back and that made me feel a little more connected to everything.

Monday, July 13, 2015

This is Pizza, This is California

If you love pizza so much that you really can't go for long without it, but let's say you aren't going to eat such kinds of things for a while, well you may make it because someone came up with the idea of cauliflower pizza.

Yes, I know this is very silly and all that but I've made it a few times now and it's pretty good.  The problem with it is that it's kind of a pain to make.  You have to have a food processor to rice your cauliflower, and that's a messy endeavor.

Except not if you live in California.

Because in California you can walk into any old grocery store and just buy a bag of "riced" cauliflower that is prepared in such a way that you can easily make cauliflower "mashed potatoes" or cauliflower "pizza crust."  This is the joy of living in California.  

Sunday, July 5, 2015

Kosher Lettuce Wraps

Tonight I attempted a dish that is one of the yummier things you can get to eat at a restaurant - but only if that restaurant is P.F. Chang's.

Have you ordered lettuce wraps elsewhere or even dared to try to make them?  P.F. Chang's has the market cornered on this item.

Well, not anymore.  And I didn't even use chicken to make these.

I bought some kosher Empire ground turkey and with great trepidation set out to make some approximation of lettuce wraps.

I know that anything you can buy and eat in a restaurant you can make in your own home but there are some things that are not worth bothering to make.

Lettuce wraps seemed like a very reasonable thing to attempt.

I used the following three websites to figure out how to make them.




And this is how I made them:


Before cooking:
1.  1 tube of Empire kosher ground turkey, thawed overnight
2.  Some cooking sake
3.  Some sesame oil
4.  1 Tablespoon of minced or chopped garlic

Final cooking
5.  1 teaspoon of fresh chopped or minced ginger
6.  1 can of water chestnuts, diced
7.  1 Tablespoon chopped green onion
8.  3 Tablespoons of chopped red onion
9.  Some rice vinegar
10. Some soy sauce
11. Some Hoisin sauce
12. Some veggie oyster sauce
13. Cayenne pepper

That's kind of a lot of ingredients but I always keep most of them in my house.  The things I bought for this included fresh ginger and water chestnuts so this was a great dish for me to throw together.

I guess there is the matter of the wrap itself.  We bought butter lettuce but I found that to be kind of gross so I'm not recommending it.  Maybe you can experiment with iceberg or some other nice, crunchy lettuce or eat it plain or over a little rice.

Marinate the turkey for 1/2 hour or more in cooking sake, garlic, sesame oil and hoisin sauce.

Cook the turkey in peanut oil until it is well browned, in crumbles, and put it aside.

Cook the ginger in a bit more peanut oil and then add the onions and cook for a couple of minutes. Add the water chestnuts and all the other sauces in there then add the turkey back in there and cook it all.  Add a pinch of cayenne pepper, some salt and black pepper.

It should look and smell delicious.  Taste it and add some more stuff if there is a flavor you like that you don't taste.

I know this is seriously not helpful to anyone in terms of a clear and exact recipe that you can follow. All I'm saying is that I made this tonight and it was so good I felt that I had to share it (especially so I will remember what I did when I want to make it for my parents because they are going to freak out about how good this is).

Please let me know how you make it and what you figure out with the lettuce wrap part.


Thursday, June 25, 2015

Minion Cupcakes

This year I was asked to make a Dave the Minion cake but I thought it was much better to make a bunch of minion cupcakes.
They were good.  One of the kids ate 6 of them.  

I am overwhelmed with gratitude for my parents and the care they have given my family lately and always.  I'm sure it is rough to have seven extra people in your house for two weeks.

Especially when one of those people screams frequently for unknown reasons, poops his pants and wanders around constantly threatening to break things or get hurt.

But he is the cutest and sweetest one so hopefully they enjoyed some of it.

It's very hard to go back to our home.

Wednesday, June 10, 2015

5 Kids

We sometimes have 5 kids.  Well, we always have 5 kids but they are not always in our care all at once.  About 20% of the time we have all 5 kids.  Usually we have 3 kids in our care and that's kind of normal for us.

But when we have all 5 kids we have to think of ways to keep our sanity.  My latest idea was one of my best.

5 kids means a lot of dishes so we do things like ask the children and ourselves to pick a glass for the day and use it all day to cut down on washing glasses and we pick a captain each night to oversee cleaning up after dinner.  But sometimes it's tricky to get all the kids to eat dinner so I decided to try having them cook.

We started with the oldest boy and youngest girl.  They cooked everything you see below with only my guidance and supervision.
They learned how make rice in the rice cooker, roast potatoes, roast asparagus and bake teriyaki salmon.

This was a yummy meal!  And they all ate (or tried) everything!! 

The other two kids did the dishes after and they can't wait for their turn learning to cook stuff.

It's very exciting to teach kids how to cook.  First you have to have tremendous patience as they spill things everywhere because you must not discourage them at any time.

You have to teach them to be careful with all the different cooking and cutting implements and to teach them about oven safety.  

But the excitement and joy that they have on their faces as they learn and then their willingness to try whatever they made is priceless.

Tonight it's pizza, which seems simple but there are many things to consider and they will be learning a lot.  I can't wait!

Sunday, June 7, 2015

Joy of Cooking

Today my daughter brought over a soccer ball ice cream maker so we could make homemade ice cream.  

She asked me if we could do this a couple of weeks ago and I was prepared.  This went kind of well and kind of horribly.

Pros: it's really easy to get going with this.  Unlike our ice cream maker which you have to freeze part of for a day or two before you can even use and then the contraption gets plugged in etc., this is so simple.

You fill the ball with ice and rock salt.  You fill the canister in the ball with cream, sugar and whatever flavor.  

Then you move around the ball until you have ice cream.

It's very good.  We made mint chocolate chip.

But here is what you have to do (that we did not do) you have to go outside in your yard and kick the ball around with four or five people for twenty five minutes.

Cons: if you make your kid move the ball around in the house on your kitchen floor it's totally boring.  There will be a lot of complaining.  And, if you open the ball after ten minutes as the instructions suggest and try to scrape the hard ice cream down into the remaining liquid you may accidentally splash/spill a lot of cream all over your entire kitchen.

So yes it works but no I would never use it again.  In fact, I'm 100% sure if you get a big Tupperware and put ice and salt in it and then put the ingredients in a smaller Tupperware inside of it and shake it for twenty minutes... Well, I'm going to use the ice cream machine next time.

I also attempted vegetarian gyoza tonight  and they were pretty darn good.